The feeling of defeat always lagged behind the need for perfection. Chasing perfection wasn’t always about being perfect but making sure everyone thought I was. Perfection, Idealistic. No one can achieve perfection. Perfection not something to look up to or set dreams upon, Perfection. The standards of perfection or being perfect can make man crumble, the expectation of someone or the goal of it (perfection) isn’t real. One thing always made me humble in my walk with Christ, how can someone (Jesus) can be so perfect, put perfection in place yet love the most imperfect people so incapable of being perfect or achieving perfection. The idea of perfection is ultimately the way a person displays his/hers outer appearance, to bring about the idea of themselves as perfect. Knowing inner self is far less perfect and incapable of achieving perfection. Most defiantly have I tried to achieve perfection or make my life or appearance seem perfect, and every single time I failed. Between my faith, the gym, and all things I try or do, perfection is something I struggle not to expect, Walking up to a barbel (weights) and I expect to be perfect at anything that requires it, I sit down to read my bible and I expect to understand everything. Someone goes to get on a bike never before have they gotten on one. Do you expect them to achieve perfection in riding that bike? Or do you think they’ll fall a couple times but you still hope they get back up and try again even though perfection wasn’t there, trying doesn’t lead to perfection doing it a thousand times isn’t perfection, there’s good, great, and most certainly improvement. Perfection isn’t chase- able. Christ is, he was not only willing to leave ultimate perfection (heaven) but become complete and total imperfection. So that you can chase after him, pursue him, love him, and not be chasing perfection in something other than him. Which brings me to two women who had different things that caught the eye of Jesus and the words of what’s important, For the heart, the mind, and what you pursue.
“ Now as they went on their way, Jesus entered a village. And a woman named Martha welcomed him into her house. And she had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet and listened to his teaching. But Martha was distracted with much serving. And she went up to him and said, “Lord, do you not care that my sister has left me to serve alone? Tell her then to help me.” But the Lord answered her, “Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, but one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her.”
Luke 10:38-42
We may think how could Martha be busy with things when Christ was in her home, but we are slow to realize how we get busy with things when Christ is in our heart, in church, in finances and we still occupy ourselves with chasing perfection, money, new house, and degrees. Martha looks over and realizes that Mary is occupied with all thing Jesus, rest, and Sitting in awe instead of ugh. When you get into building something you take a step back and just look, sometimes to fix something, get a second opinion or to check your progress. When Martha finally took a step back she realize but not in a relived way but in a jealous way, it wasn’t till Jesus put his opinion in she (Martha) realized where she went wrong. Martha chased getting things done, Mary chased things of Jesus. Mary didn’t chase a title, or appearance, simply Jesus. We get caught up in the appearance instead of his appeal, Jesus isn’t in love with us or pursue’s us because of what we are, not because of who we are, But because of who he his.
Lottom: “Chasing things of perfection or trying our best to be perfect will leave our heart, mind, and faith all in pursuit of emptiness and idealistic state of being/mind, pursue things of Christ and through his perfection to fulfill imperfection. We often think perfection leaves the heart content while being perfect chases after God’s but its when we are real, honest, and totally imperfect that captures him.”
The Pursuit Of Shalom 